yes, i know, i am a bit lag in realising that july is actually here.

don’t can’t recall since when, probably 7 or 8 or maybe even 10 years back? july have became a significant month in the calendar, every year.
significant because a lot of life changing events begins in july, every year. many life path decisions was made. and coincidentally because it also the month my birthday falls on, many wishes were made. yup, i am a very greedy person, and i make a lot of wish and resolution with myself on my birthday. somehow birthday resolution weighs in more with me than new year resolution.

i can already see how this july is going to be! and i can even see the big decisions that’s coming this month. i guess maybe that why i actually start having dreams again, or rather nightmares actually. nightmares so bad i actually shoot wide awake, sweating, freaking out trying to figure out what happened and where i am. or maybe it’s just the stress. i usually have dreamless nights, or sweet dreams which i wake up forgetting immediately. otherwise, it’s just all sort of weird dreams. most nights, it’s just dreamless.

nightmares are extremely bad for me. because i can remember almost every little details in it, like every single details, and they are always black and white. it’s that freaky.
when i was young, nightmares leads to sleepwalking, and eventually sleepwalking becomes a norm over the nightmares.

yes. i was a sleepwalker, and i really hope it doesn’t come back.

sleepwalking is freaking! i remember all those sleepwalking dreams even till today.

i remember once, i was in on a ship, a pirate ship! it was attacked, the ship breaks into pieces and it started sinking. i was frantically holding on to the only wooden plank i can grab.
guess what! i woke up in my primary school uniform, fully clothes, struggling to tie my shoe laces.
another time, i was in a palace, kneeling on the red carpet in front of the princess and her CAT with knights lined along (those old british in castle, ceremonial kind of setting).
i woke up, at my house gate. the main door, wide open! With this DAMN CAT staring back at me!!!!!!
the extremely messy ones are probably the one where i decorate the house with vomits. yup! i get caned or scolded every morning for this! i will dream of huge huge HAM trucks chasing after me on a roller coaster kind of maze. or a busy bee going about disturbing honey.

thinking back, i always wondered how i can goes like “WHATEVER” and just walk back to my bed and sleep. probably didn’t really understood what was going on with my body. ignorance indeed was bliss.

i drifted. yup! all of the above got nothing to do with JULY. kthxbye.

HAHA, on a random note, how does this 28th birthday wish/plan looks like?
1. Find myself the lady, preferably before 29th.
2. Get married 1 to 2 years down, probably says at 30?
3. Then our first child 1 to 2 years after marriage. Definitely before 33. anything more than that seems like too big a generation gap! LOL
sounds like a plan, doesn’t it? haha, if only life is so straight forward.

Yup, for the last few july, since uni yr 1 or 2? i have been thinking about settling down. maybe it’s growing old, the part in me or wanting to have my own family.
but of course, the other half is extremely important.

the right lady. it’s time to move on, boy.