there’s so many things to be happy about, so many things to be excited with, and so many things to look forward to.
but at the same times, for everything i am happy, excited or looking forward to, there’s this other side of the story that’s totalling damning. no one see the challenge and difficulties you have to overcome to hit your objective. many just want to shower with you in the glory, and only that few will go through shit and crap with you.

i really hate it when they come and ask about my work, my life and then add all the unneeded comments, i can’t lie and say that i am not affected because i totally am! and even with deadline over due with things piling, i just couldn’t get myself into the mood of working working. your words just keep repeating itself in my head over and over again!! sometimes, i really want to share with you all what i am doing and how i am doing, but all the time, it just hit me that you wouldn’t understand and wouldn’t try to understand and that vicious cycle just repeats itself.

all i have on my mind is how to put it across to you all. and how you will never bring that stupid annoying topic up ever again.