i changed my password back. and because google doesn’t allow reuse of any previous password, the two K are now capitalised. and somehow, quite interestingly my iCloud is the same as yours!

i am a very confused kid now. suddenly i realise that i cannot find closure.

i meet up with this colleague turned friend. we worked together 4 years plus back when i was still in uni. and yes, it’s 4 years since we met. we did kept in touch anyhow in between but never really meet up. she is the rare few whom i can communicate and share things with. and so she provided me with a very different perspective about things, somehow it’s like perspective you would share. somehow it’s like things you would tell me. and something inside me suddenly want to reach to my phone and send you a message asking you how you have been doing.

although what you did on 14 oct have been bothering me ever since i found out. the chain of events since color run pack collection have been bothering me a lot too.
when i see you at nike.. i can’t find a word to describe that moment. i wanted to smile, but it couldn’t come out. and it was just over in seconds.
i can’t believe YR came to my counter at RTD, and that although amanda gave YR and her bf their bibs, the bib runner gave me yours. i looked at the name, the ic number, i know i froze a bit. YR and bf are strangers to me, so when the bib pass my hands, i just froze. i can’t find a word to describe that emotion too. or rather, i don’t know how to describe that emotion. i can’t use coincidental to describe what happen.

i decided to change my password back cause i don’t like my new password. HAHAHA lousy reason.
actually, i don’t know why. something just wasn’t right changing it, although i thought, not changing it can’t fit right in too.

my heart and mind is just confused and troubled. i cannot understand why you do the things you did. i don’t know how you feel reading the things you read. and no matter how many times i try to put myself in your shoes, i cannot understand what’s going on in you. and everything just get so confusing i sort of find myself losing myself again.

when i see a blog visitor from United Arab Emirates, Dubai, and when i know you are there, this have become the way i communicate with you. because this have become the way i know i can definitely reach you.