well, i guess i need to start somewhere. the mind have been in a pretty confused state lately, confused in a sense that it’s so hard to put this emotion in words.
i tried, but this is my fifth attempt, each time, deleting the entire paragraph.

life on a fast pace is always exciting, it’s always intriguing and definitely worth looking forward to. many thoughts and perhaps some feelings get stuck in a confuse state because i find myself having this need to fully understand what emotions and thought process that went through for such a conclusion or to feel such an emotion. in this process, i find myself wanting to cover all aspects of outcome and possibility, or maybe even predict the future or have a peek into it. through understanding, this friend call “gut feeling” keep dropping by to give his dime worth of opinion, and just go on to contradicts what the heart feels and what the mind decides upon.

and all of this gets annoying when it affects work and even worse, work got affected the same way.

some thoughts are crystal clear. some emotions deeply rooted.

this sure is one hell of a depressing post, and definitely isn’t the best monday.
perhaps it’s fear. fear of the inevitable and supposedly impossible.