a string of words triggered and forced me to look back into the last 7 months without you.
i don’t like to believe in coincident, but for what happened, i cannot don’t. what happened in the last 7 months only reinforce my belief in fate, and that we choose how we want to walk our destiny. i don’t know if you know what i mean here.

i know what i want now, i know who i want to be, and i know how i want my life to be, now. i know now that the person i was when i was with you is someone i want to grow up to be, but the process was thoroughly wrong we end up losing happiness, faith and freedom. nights like these are hard, it’s extremely difficult.

tonight, i just want to be true to myself, be real to myself, and to just open myself up for once.

and i want to tell you a few things.
thank you and i misses you. thank you for forcing me away.
quite frankly, i am happier now, although sometimes i do doubt myself if i really am happier now.
i am definitely living good, and i really hope you are living your life better too. i know for sure i have gotten over our relationship, not because it wasn’t important to me, but because i have decided to just remember the happy things and to forget the nasty ones. nights like these when the tears couldn’t stop flowing makes me wonder if i have really moved on, then i realise its because i miss loving you and because i miss all the happy moments we had together. but i guess we both know it’s not going to work. i still love you. but it’s the love where i wish that you find your one true happiness. there is no hate.

i read your post titled “A New Chapter”, it’s 6 months since, and i wish you continue to be as happy as you said you were.
i know it isn’t going to be easy, it wasn’t easy for me too, but be real and be true to yourself. i really hope you did it or eventually do.

somehow this post signify something, but i haven’t figure out what exactly yet.
yes. i found someone. no. i am single. no. i choose career first.